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I'm happy, don't get me wrong

But I there's a part of me that wish this whole thing never happened

That I never made it on exec

So that I wouldn't have to hear of the frustration, the bitterness, the sadness, the negativity that seems to be oozing out of every single corner

So that I wouldn't have to see my closest friends cry, to see them get mad at me, to see them contemplate on how one rejection characterizes them as someone they're not

So that I wouldn't have to deal with all this crap getting thrown at my face

But it's done, it's set and stone and ready to go

So I guess I have to be okay with it

Or at least pretend to be okay with it

Because someone has to be strong and maintain a positive attitude

Someone's gotta do it

And although I don't feel like it right now, I'll do it

Someone's gotta do it

It just breaks my heart to have people I know and love angry and depressed

It makes me angry and depressed to see them like that

It's not fair, it's not right, it's shouldn't be that way

I always tried to keep ASB and friends separate

So things would have been able to stay the way they were

So it didn't get personal

Fail.

I wish people didn't care as much

So the hurt wouldn't be so severe

So that everything would be just fine and dandy

Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top?

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I'm happy but feel like I shouldn't be happy when people I know and love are sitting and crying because they're worked so hard just to have their accomplishments taken right out of their hands and thrown to the ground

But I'm so thankful!

I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people around rooting for me, encouraging me, being there for me. So so incredibly blessed!

I know I've said it a hundred times already, but THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

Thank you Mary and Dais for waking up early and putting posters up with me

Thank you Chris for yelling at random kids to vote for me and handing out flyers like there was no tomorrow

Thank you Brandon T for making me go around and talk to people during lunch

Thank you to my ASB family for rooting for me

Thank you Mai Linh for being the most amazing friend and writing that amazing speech

Thank you Jessica and Becky for coming early and helping me put up posters and handing out flyers

Thank you to everyone who wore the shirts Dais and I slaved over

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

From the bottom of my heart

Okay, I need to study Precalc so I don't fail the test. Again. And I promised Anna I'd try hard!

Wow, I'm tired. Thank the Lord tomorrow's Friday!

Sweet Dreams