Breakfast for Dinner

My mind is in shambles

I need to talk to people more about what's running through my brain, because keeping it all in is making me go a bit crazy

I need to escape to Arizona for a week and have late night conversations and stay up baking cake and and watching ridiculous movies

It seems like everyone knows what they want to do in life. They know that they want to be a doctor or psychiatrist or pharmacist or something successful like that. And then they ask me...and I smile and change the subject. Because quite honestly, I think my dreams job is silly compared to everyone else's. You know what sounds amazing to me? Working in the music industry and being an A&R Representative. I don't think many people know what that means, but I did a project on it freshman year, and it sounded amazing! Another dream job would to work in the fashion industry, at some magazine, designing and making up layouts and all that jazz. But these sound so simple and impractical compared to everyone else's dreams.

But the thing is I cannot imagine myself working in a business office, filing papers all day and sitting at a desk on the computer. Been there, done that, and I absolutely detest it. Why do something you don't love? My attitude is the same with guys! Why go out with someone when you don't even like them that much, or you know it's not even going to last? I know some of my friends think I'm insane, but hey, it's all good! I kinda feel bad if anyone ever likes me, because I'm an ignorer and (even if I like them a lot) I won't go out with them. That's where the insane part comes in. =) Issues man, issues! I have all these crushes too, that's the funny part. I have crushes on so many guys its ridiculous, but if I find out they like me, I just run away. Ahhhh, this is what I get for not blogging for a long time!

On a lighter, note, this song is my new obsession. "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum. Regardless of what people say, country music is pretty good! Not that twangy crazy stuff, but a little banjo here and there won't kill you!

A lot has happened in the past couple of months. But I know more than ever that life is short, and we just have to let things work themselves out, even if its not what we expected, or what we wanted. My uncle Yosef died this morning, and even though I didn't know him too well, my heart just breaks for Roselynne and her mom. I love my family so much, and it kills me to see them like this. Oh geez, I feel myself tearing up! What do you say to someone who just lost someone they love?