Late night thinking sessions

I like this blog, it's nice to look back on

I'm feeling really self-conscious now

And it sucks, because I didn't before

A part of me wishes to be in a relationship and have a boy and all that good stuff

But at the same time, I'm really glad I don't so I don't have to feel like this all the time

Because this feeling just sucks

Stupid boys

On another note though, I love my ASB!

I loved last year and had an amazing time with tons of memories

But this year is different

The whole dynamic and feel to the group is different

And I absolutely love it

I'm so proud and honored to be apart of this group

I've met so many amazing people

And that's what I love most about ASB!

You get to meet these people you've passed everyday in the halls

And you formed your opinions on them from what you've seen and heard

And then you talk to them, slave over posters with them, go on car rides with them

And realize that you were completely wrong

And the person becomes one of your closest friends

And it's wonderful!

I'm a lazy perfectionist

My eyeballs are exhausted

We need to write a children's book in Spanish

I think I have an idea for one:

It'll be about a peanut

Who lives on a farm

On the farm lives a whole bunch of nuts

Walnuts, almonds, cashews: the works

And his whole life, the peanut thinks that he belongs

Because he's a nut, just like everyone else

But one day, the peanut gets made fun of

And he finds out that he's not really a nut at all

But actually part of the legume family

He's devastated, but then learns that his uniqueness makes him special

And he saves the day at the farm with his special legume skills

And all the nuts who used to make fun of him now love him

And he lives happily ever after

Quite the story, huh! Granted, I don't know how that would translate in Spanish, but hey, I'll give it a shot!

Goodnight

='(

I'm happy, don't get me wrong

But I there's a part of me that wish this whole thing never happened

That I never made it on exec

So that I wouldn't have to hear of the frustration, the bitterness, the sadness, the negativity that seems to be oozing out of every single corner

So that I wouldn't have to see my closest friends cry, to see them get mad at me, to see them contemplate on how one rejection characterizes them as someone they're not

So that I wouldn't have to deal with all this crap getting thrown at my face

But it's done, it's set and stone and ready to go

So I guess I have to be okay with it

Or at least pretend to be okay with it

Because someone has to be strong and maintain a positive attitude

Someone's gotta do it

And although I don't feel like it right now, I'll do it

Someone's gotta do it

It just breaks my heart to have people I know and love angry and depressed

It makes me angry and depressed to see them like that

It's not fair, it's not right, it's shouldn't be that way

I always tried to keep ASB and friends separate

So things would have been able to stay the way they were

So it didn't get personal

Fail.

I wish people didn't care as much

So the hurt wouldn't be so severe

So that everything would be just fine and dandy

Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top?

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I'm happy but feel like I shouldn't be happy when people I know and love are sitting and crying because they're worked so hard just to have their accomplishments taken right out of their hands and thrown to the ground

But I'm so thankful!

I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people around rooting for me, encouraging me, being there for me. So so incredibly blessed!

I know I've said it a hundred times already, but THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

Thank you Mary and Dais for waking up early and putting posters up with me

Thank you Chris for yelling at random kids to vote for me and handing out flyers like there was no tomorrow

Thank you Brandon T for making me go around and talk to people during lunch

Thank you to my ASB family for rooting for me

Thank you Mai Linh for being the most amazing friend and writing that amazing speech

Thank you Jessica and Becky for coming early and helping me put up posters and handing out flyers

Thank you to everyone who wore the shirts Dais and I slaved over

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

From the bottom of my heart

Okay, I need to study Precalc so I don't fail the test. Again. And I promised Anna I'd try hard!

Wow, I'm tired. Thank the Lord tomorrow's Friday!

Sweet Dreams

Caaaaaannnnn, anybody

Where the heck did March go?

I could've sworn it just started

This week is gonna be nuts

Every week has been nuts

Next week will be chill

Next next week will be absolutely ridiculous

Can anyone come up with a catchy slogan for me?

GLEE STARTS IN 2-ISH WEEKS!

Hip hip hoorayyyyy

Long > Short

I wish people wore long dresses to prom here

Long dresses are so pretty

I'd want to wear a long dress if I went to prom

Gosh, I should stop basing school dances dresses off the gorgeous Academy Awards dresses!

Ahhh, such beautiful dresses

And did you see Sam Worthington from Avatar presenting in his glasses?

Hotness oozing out of him!

Guys with glasses and suits = pretty

Wow, my stomach growls quite noisily

It's almost March!

In about 6 minutes from right now

March is a crazy month, I don't think I'm ready for it

Homework to be done and posters to be made and elections to be prepared

And mac and cheese still to be made!

I haven't given up on my new year's goal to make homemade mac and cheese yet

Still got me some time, still got me some time

Okay, now to study for some dreaded physics...

Oh how I detest physics

Physics sucks

2 minutes til March!

Goodnight!

The raindrops keep falling on my head

Wait....can this be?

Is this real?

Is this really happening?

I think I actually understand math!

Oh happy day!

Let's celebrate!

By doing more practice problems!

Hip Hip Hooray!

My goodness, that was a lot of exclamation points!

!!!!

It's amazing how Samoa Girl Scout cookies wake me up right when I'm about to fall alseep

I swear, they put drugs in those cookies, they're so delicious

Potato Month

b a l a n c e

Why is it that I can't seem to balance anything?

I don't have a lot on my plate compared to some people,

to most people

But I just can't seem to do what I have to do

I need to wait until my mom steps in and makes me cry to actually get important stuff done

Motivation

I need one!

I read a truly inspiring story today about a guy whose name I can't spell right, but it made me stop and assess myself for a moment.

What have I done? I mean, really truly done. To better myself, the people around me, the people I love. I can't really think of anything, anything at all. Sometimes I get these bursts of motivations and stamina and I work hard and try and feel accomplished. And then those die out after a few days, and I'm back to where I started. Know what the sad thing is? Most of the time I spend wasting on the computer looking at clothes. Clothes!

Goodness, I love clothes. I want to make a living out of it, but it's not practical, it's not what the good kids do. I think my family would support me if I tried it out, was passionate about it and really wanted to succeed.

But I don't feel passionate enough about anything

I'm just too worried

Worried about the craziest little details!

About this and that and him and her and you and I and them and....did I leave out any pronouns?

Ay yay yay

I think that I will honestly start trying now, and just letting go of all these insane thoughts sprinting around in my brain

Starting....

Now!

Goodnight, sleep tight

That was some delectable pasta

I've never been one of those people to spill out everything to everybody. I keep things to myself and don't even say everything to my close friends or cousin. Not because I'm hiding anything, not because I don't want to tell them exactly, but because I feel like so many other people spill out all their guts, that it's not really necessary for me to go all out. Does this even make any sense?

I like Tumblr, but I can't get myself to post anything serious on it

Blogspot baby!

Words of wisdom

"Why should we be in such desperate haste to succeed, and in such desperate enterprises? If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away."

-Henry David Thoreau

BBQ Chips ftw

Hello Blogspot!

How are you today?

I'm quite well, thank you.

My fingers are a bit frozen but all is well

Finals are this week!

Hip hip hooray!

Yeah, no.

Epic fail!

Ahhh, well, here goes nothing

P.S. PHYSICS IS RIDICULOUS!

Okay, have a wonderful day