b a l a n c e
Why is it that I can't seem to balance anything?
I don't have a lot on my plate compared to some people,
to most people
But I just can't seem to do what I have to do
I need to wait until my mom steps in and makes me cry to actually get important stuff done
Motivation
I need one!
I read a truly inspiring story today about a guy whose name I can't spell right, but it made me stop and assess myself for a moment.
What have I done? I mean, really truly done. To better myself, the people around me, the people I love. I can't really think of anything, anything at all. Sometimes I get these bursts of motivations and stamina and I work hard and try and feel accomplished. And then those die out after a few days, and I'm back to where I started. Know what the sad thing is? Most of the time I spend wasting on the computer looking at clothes. Clothes!
Goodness, I love clothes. I want to make a living out of it, but it's not practical, it's not what the good kids do. I think my family would support me if I tried it out, was passionate about it and really wanted to succeed.
But I don't feel passionate enough about anything
I'm just too worried
Worried about the craziest little details!
About this and that and him and her and you and I and them and....did I leave out any pronouns?
Ay yay yay
I think that I will honestly start trying now, and just letting go of all these insane thoughts sprinting around in my brain
Starting....
Now!
Goodnight, sleep tight
